I’ve written for a long time, and communicate best through written medium

This, then, is enough. You are a writer, like it or not. And being a writer has nothing to do with good or bad, it has to do with a way of being. I can no more go without writing for very long than I can go without food or water. Without writing my mind gets messy and I often feel as though I might explode. Once I have the chance to start writing (and this works with both pen and paper and keyboard now) I can sense physical changes, much like a junkee who just got a fix of whatever takes their edge off.

i’m a recluse who forces myself to interact outside my little family and circle of friends. The thought of someone outside that safe haven reading what I write is daunting. What if they don’t understand my meaning? my jokes? my tone? What if he reader gets the wrong impression of me? Or – egads – the RIGHT one! *grin*

i’m a closet commedianne, and my closest friends call me a SAM – i/e/, one who makes comments just for deliberate irritation – so i’m often flippant in my “outside” persona. Inside … that’s where the writing comes from, and that’s the part very few people ever see. To have it out where anyone else sees it – is dangerous. i don’t open up that way often, even though the few who have had access to my writing tell me it’s good .. but they are biased.

i’m hoping that i can work my way through this block here in this group of like-minded writers.

Since it’s going to be so important to capture your thoughts in writing, let me suggest a couple of things for consideration. First, you could push through this discomfort and post more here. Another possibility is that you could use a weblog like tabulas for your private thoughts where you can allow only certain people (like your facilitator and journey mates) to see them. Another possibility is nicenet where again you get to say who reads. Let me know your thoughts (oh, and do stop by my blog to see that writing for general reading isn’t all that bad – although I often do pity the people who stop by to read as I write in that blog mostly for me, not for an audience).

I’m excited to have you here!